There is a bridal gown – white and beautiful, covered in glittery jewels making it shine bright. And as I stand looking at it, I am struck with the thought, “how can I possibly wear this?” I feel so unworthy. I feel the weight of shame from my past – innocence lost, mistakes made. The loud voices saying “You are not enough.”
Then suddenly I feel a change around me, like a flicker of hope. It’s then I sense the Father near me, and I feel His penetrating stare – it’s not one of rejection, but instead one of pure love and delight. His eyes meet mine as I finally am able to look up at Him. A liquid warmth fills my entire body as I meet His gaze. My heart skips, and I take pleasure in the moment. For the first time, I begin to see His heart for me.
He tenderly explains to me that the I am worthy to be His bride. He reminds me that I turned to Him and away from my old life, and now I’ve received complete atonement. Giving Him my heart meant giving it all – even my past. And His refreshing and renewing began at that moment. His precious blood covers all – every area is made clean.
He speaks again to me with His eyes saying, “You are made white as snow. You are My bride – sparkling white and beautiful in My sight. I only see the new you!” He takes my hands and presses them to His heart willing me to see myself as He does. All at once I see myself as His glorious bride, adorned in my full, white gown. Excitement enters my heart again, and the anticipation of this moment with Him is so intoxicating I don’t want to leave this place.
He gently but firmly tells me to remember this moment and to come back often. He knows the enemy wishes to replay my mistakes in my mind often to discourage me from thinking I am the bride. He carefully places His seal upon my finger, reminding me that I am His and He is mine. As a queen and king wear their royal diadems, I am to do likewise – covering my head with truth that lies will not enter. So when the questions arise, I am to vanquish those thoughts captive and allow them to be removed as far as the east is from the west.
With trembling excitement, I step into the beautiful, flowing bridal gown that is waiting for me. It fits perfectly, like it was made just for me. The gown seems to join both my body and my mind. It starts to radiate a natural beauty from within that manifests on the outside. The pure light is so strong I can barely look at it with my natural eyes. The light reflects everywhere I turn. I began to dance for joy – the feeling is overwhelming. He watches me with a huge smile and laughs as I rejoice in this wonderful moment.
It’s then – as I join in thought and deed with Him – that I start to radiate pure light. I then understand – let the two become one. I hear Him say, “Let Me shine through you. Let the excitement return to you – much like the anticipation of the bride seeing her groom and Him seeing her for the first time. Come away with Me, My beloved – for you are Mine and I am yours!“
I feel more than restored – it’s like a complete washing of my heart and my mind. I am made new in Him! I am worthy of being the bride! I align myself with my Beloved, and I step into my God-ordained role. I wear the bridal gown with joy and freedom.
Song of Solomon 6:3 (NKJV) I am my beloved’s, And my beloved is mine. He feeds his flock among the lilies.
Isaiah 62:3 (NKJV) You shall also be a crown of glory In the hand of the Lord, And a royal diadem In the hand of your God.
2 Corinthians 10:5 (NKJV) casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ,